(כא) וַיֶּעְתַּ֨ר יִצְחָ֤ק לַֽיהֹוָה֙ לְנֹ֣כַח אִשְׁתּ֔וֹ כִּ֥י עֲקָרָ֖ה הִ֑וא וַיֵּעָ֤תֶר לוֹ֙ יְהֹוָ֔ה וַתַּ֖הַר רִבְקָ֥ה אִשְׁתּֽוֹ׃ (כב) וַיִּתְרֹֽצְצ֤וּ הַבָּנִים֙ בְּקִרְבָּ֔הּ וַתֹּ֣אמֶר אִם־כֵּ֔ן לָ֥מָּה זֶּ֖ה אָנֹ֑כִי וַתֵּ֖לֶךְ לִדְרֹ֥שׁ אֶת־יְהֹוָֽה׃
(21) Isaac pleaded with GOD on behalf of his wife, because she was infertile; and GOD responded to his plea, and his wife Rebekah conceived. (22) But the children struggled in her womb, and she said, “If so, why do I exist?” She went to inquire of GOD,
(ב)ותאמר אם כן. גָּדוֹל צַעַר הָעִבּוּר. (ג)למה זה אנכי. מִתְאַוָּה וּמִתְפַּלֶּלֶת עַל הֵרָיוֹן:
(2) ותאמר אם כן means AND SHE SAID, “IF the pain of pregnancy be so great, (3) למה זה אנכי WHY IS IT that I longed and prayed to become pregnant?” (Genesis Rabbah 63:6).
והיא שאלה לנשים שילדו אם ארע להם ככה, ותאמרנה לא: (ב)וטעם ותאמר אם כן. הדבר והמנהג, למה זה אנכי בהריון משונה:
...Rebekah asked women who had children if they had had a similar experience. They responded that they did not. (2) Rebekah then said, if it, namely, the manner and custom of pregnancy, be so as they said, wherefore do I undergo such an abnormal pregnancy.
(א)וַתֹּאמֶר אִם כֵּן לָמָּה זֶּה אָנֹכִי אִם כֵּן גָּדוֹל צַעַר הָעִבּוּר לָמָּה זֶה אָנֹכִי מִתְפַּלֶּלֶת וּמִתְאַוָּה עַל הַהֵרָיוֹן, לְשׁוֹן רַשִׁ"י (רש"י על בראשית כ"ה:כ"ב), וְאֵינֶנּוּ נָכוֹן. וְרַבִּי אַבְרָהָם אָמַר (אבן עזרא על בראשית כ"ה:כ"ב) כִּי שָׁאֲלָה אֶת הַנָּשִׁים אִם אֵרַע לָהֶם כָּכָה, וַתֹּאמַרְנָה לֹא, וַתֹּאמֶר אִם כֵּן הַדָּבָר וְהַמִּנְהָג לָמָּה זֶה אָנֹכִי בְּהֵרָיוֹן מְשֻׁנֶּה. וְהִנֵּה הַכָּתוּב חָסֵר וְאֵינֶנּוּ שָׁלֵם בַּפֵּרוּשׁ הַזֶּה. וְהַנָּכוֹן בְּעֵינַי כִּי אָמְרָה אִם כֵּן יִהְיֶה לִי, לָמָּה זֶה אָנֹכִי בָּעוֹלָם, הַלְוַאי אֵינֶנִּי שֶׁאָמוּת אוֹ שֶׁלֹּא הָיִיתִי, כְּטַעַם "כַּאֲשֶׁר לֹא הָיִיתִי אֶהְיֶה" (איוב י יט):
(1) AND SHE SAID: IF IT BE SO, ‘LAMAH ZEH ANOCHI?’”If the pain of pregnancy is so great, lamah zeh anochi (why did I) pray for and aspire to pregnancy?” Thus Rashi. But it is not correct. Rabbi Abraham ibn Ezra says that she asked the women if they had experienced such pains, and they said, “No,” whereupon she said, “If the matter and custom of pregnancy be as they said, lamah zeh anochi, why am I beset with an unusual pregnancy?” Now according to this exposition, the verse is missing and not complete.
The correct interpretation in my opinion is that she said, “If it shall be so with me, lamah zeh anochi, [why am I in the world]? Would that I did not exist, that I should die or never have come into existence.” This is similar to the verse, I should have been as though I had not been.
(א)וַתֹּאמֶר אִם כֵּן. אַחֲרֵי שֶׁהַדָּבָר כֵּן שֶׁמִּתְרוֹצְצִין וְיֵשׁ לָחוּשׁ שֶׁיָּמוּת אֶחָד מֵהֶם וְאֶסְתַּכֵּן אֲנִי בַּלֵּידָה כְּמִנְהַג בְּלֵידַת עוּבָּר מֵת. (ב)לָמָּה זֶּה אָנֹכִי. לָמָּה זֶה הִתְאַוּוּ קְרוֹבַי שֶׁאֶהְיֶה אֲנִי אֵם הַזֶּרַע בְּאָמְרָם "אַתְּ הֲיִי לְאַלְפֵי רְבָבָה" (בראשית כד:ס), וְכֵן בַּעְלִי שֶׁהִתְפַּלֵּל עָלַי בָּזֶה:
(1) ותאמר אם כן, after it is a fact that these fetuses already are at each other’s throats I have reason to be afraid that one of them will die so that I endanger myself by giving birth to them, causing one of them to be stillborn. (2) למה זה אנכי, why were my relatives so concerned that it would be I who provide the seed for Yitzchok when they said את היי לאלפי רבבה, “may it be you who will be the source of millions.” (24,60) Also, why did my husband insist that I become the mother of his children?
(ב) אם כן גדול צער העיבור למה זה אנכי קיימת בחיים נוח לי שאמות מיד ולא אסבול עוד צער הריון ולידה.
(2) אם כן, “if there is so much pain involved in pregnancy, why do I have to remain alive?” I prefer to die immediately and avoid suffering the pains of pregnancy and birth.
(א)וַיִּתְרֹצְצוּ הַבָּנִים בְּקִרְבָּהּ וְגוֹ׳. רְצִיצָה זוֹ הָיָה שֶׁבְּעָבְרָהּ עַל פֶּתַח בֵּית הַמִּדְרָשׁ שֶׁל שֵׁם וְעֵבֶר, יַעֲקֹב מְפַרְכֵּס לָצֵאת וְעֵשָׂו מְעַכֵּב עַל יָדוֹ. וּבְעָבְרָהּ עַל פֶּתַח עֲבוֹדָה זָרָה, עֵשָׂו מְפַרְכֵּס לָצֵאת וְיַעֲקֹב מְעַכֵּב עַל יָדוֹ. וְהִיא סָבְרָה שֶׁאֵין הַדָּבָר כֵּן, אֶלָּא וָלָד אֶחָד בְּבִטְנָהּ וְרוֹצֶה לָצֵאת בֵּין לְפִתְחֵי בָּתֵּי מִדְרָשׁוֹת בֵּין לְפֶתַח עֲבוֹדָה זָרָה, וְאִם כֵּן חָס וְשָׁלוֹם שֶׁמָּא שְׁתֵּי רְשׁוּיוֹת יֵשׁ. לְפִיכָךְ אָמְרָה ״לָמָּה זֶּה אָנֹכִי״, כִּי כָּמוֹנִי כִּשְׁאָר נָשִׁים עוֹבְדֵי עֲבוֹדָה זָרָה, וּמַה יִּתְרוֹן יֵשׁ לִי עֲלֵיהֶם אִם חָס וְשָׁלוֹם שְׁתֵּי רְשׁוּיוֹת יֵשׁ. לְפִיכָךְ ״וַתֵּלֶךְ לִדְרֹשׁ אֶת ה׳״, רוֹצֶה לוֹמַר לִדְרוֹשׁ אַחַר מְצִיאוּת ה׳ מַמָּשׁ מַהוּ.
(1)“And the children struggled within her, etc.” This struggling occurred when she would pass by the entrance of the study hall of Shem and Ever — Jacob would struggle to emerge while Esau would hold him back. And when she would pass by the entrance of a place of idol worship, Esau would struggle to emerge while Jacob would hold him back. She thought that this couldn’t be the case, rather that there was only one child in her womb who wanted to emerge both at the entrances of study halls and at the entrance of places of idol worship. If so, Heaven forbid, perhaps there are two [divine] authorities. Therefore, she said Why is this happening to me? — meaning, I am like other women who worship idols, so what advantage do I have over them if, Heaven forbid, there are two authorities? Therefore, she went to inquire of the Lord — meaning, to inquire about the true existence of God, what it really is.


